i must be crazy

i have decided to give love another try. there's a guy onboard who'd been courting me persistently and he wore me down and i fell in love

it was a long process for us to get to this point. a lot of discussions, arguments, compromises... but at the end of it all, we both realized one simple truth: we want to be with each other and we are both willing to do whatever it takes to end up together.

i know i made a promise to myself that i wouldn't have another long distance relationship unless i was sure that the guy would meet me halfway. i could see that this guy is willing to do just that.

i've come to the conclusion that i'm absolutely crazy. let's be honest, i could very well end up broken-hearted and that scares the hell out of me. but at the same time, i'm glad that my ex didn't destroy me as much as i thought he did. i thought i'd lost the ability to take risks and be adventurous, but it appears that i haven't. and i have my new guy to thank for that.

i remember hearing somewhere that if an opportunity to change your life comes your way, you should take it. i ended up working for holland america. it's turned out to be one of the best decisions i've ever made. not because i met my new guy but because i discovered things about myself that i never would have otherwise. plus i've opened so many doors for myself.

a few months later, those same words managed to find it's way to into my consciousness. this is where ny new guy comes in because he was definitely behind one of the doors that i entered. and walking into that door may mean a completely new life for me. and i believe that's an opportunity i shouldn't pass up.

it's been a long time since i've felt this passionate about anything - apart from working onboard - and i have to admit that it feels good. and i'm looking forward to where the ride is going to take me.